Everything is making me tear up today....the sermon at church discussing death...driving home from church thinking about how it's another Easter without my dad....thinking about my Lucy....hearing that other people are pregnant....
We just want a baby so bad. And everytime I feel that it's so close, I get scared that what if it's not? I can't take much more waiting. And we can't afford to do much at this point either...because our health insurance is awful.
So, all I can do is pray right now. God, PLEASE, all we are asking for right now is to be pregnant...THIS year. Whether it be on our own, or during our 2nd IVF attempt...but I want my baby in 2010. I know I sound so awful and greedy....
